Am I insane??

Tue Dec 26, 2:41 am
This is what the right top corner of my laptop screen reads right now..

just have a look at how I spent my time today..

12 pm.. (Dec 25)
someone knocks my room's door.. i see the watch.. i wait for another knock.. it does'nt happen again.. i continue with my sleep..

1 pm..
my alarm starts ringing.. if i want to have lunch today, i have to wake up now.. (fyi, i do stay in a hostel, where we have single occupancy rooms.. mess closes lunch at 2pm.. i have been missing lunch for a couple of days now.. i'm not that lazy, i just slept at 6am last nite.. today morning would be more correct..
what did i do the whole night?? well, thats how life is at IIT hostels.. nothing unusual here.. the movie i started watching at 3 am last night ended up at 5.. it was a good one- the usual suspects.. then did my usual routine of checking mails and stuff.. as usual, slept at 6..)
well let me cut the crap.. its 1 pm and i am confused.. i have to take the hard decision of having lunch or sleeping further.. eating vs sleeping.. the two best things in life.. really tough.. huh??.. by 1:10 pm, i sit up in my bed.. still half asleep, i can't make up my mind..
in a few more minutes, i manage to get out of bed and sit on my chair.. i open up my laptop, turn it on.. and wait for a few seconds to boot.. as usual, i click on 3 icons on the toolbar- gaim, firefox and terminal.. the gaim window pops up and says "u hav X new msgs".. the firefox asks for password.. i ssh to my department machine from the terminal.. open thunderbird.. check those mails first.. there are atleast 10.. then yahoo and orkut.. check mails in yahoo, delete the spams without reading and read the scraps.. reply if any.. continue browsing on orkut.. check out a few communities and profiles..
i am almost completely awake now.. still, there is an other me who wants to sleep more.. i recall the time i slept yesterday.. i hav slept just for 7 hours.. i can have more.. there are clashes in my mind on whether to eat or whether to sleep.. its 1:30 already!! i'm running out of time.. finally i rise out of my chair, pickup my toothbrush and walk towards the bathroom.. hurray!! i think i'll have my lunch today..

1:50 pm..
i am finally running to the mess.. with a sense of achievement.. coz i am having lunch today!! there's papad :P i pick up 3.. i dont care what the other stuff is.. eat and come back to my room..

2:30 pm..
i phone my mom.. she needs to check if i had lunch.. its not a daily routine, but since i did have lunch today, i must call!! i was surprised to find dad home.. ooh, its christmas today.. people have a holiday.. since the past one and a half year at IIT, all days are equal.. holidays, weekends, weekdays.. the mantra is: if u have work then u have to.. if your deadlines are far then enjoy.. who cares what day it is.. who cares what the world is doing outside.. thats the way life is inside the campus.. atleast mine..

3 pm..
back with the laptop.. doing what i always do.. two IM chat windows + orkut and yahoo in browser + thunderbird

3:30 pm..
done with mails.. some thoughts creep up my mind.. i have a look at what all i have to do.. too much stuff!! lets have a nap instead.. change the IM status to invisible.. move to the bed.. period

5:00 pm..
a missed call awakens me.. i check out.. it was a friend who expected some mail from me.. i check the time in the alarm clock.. its always near the cushion.. so that i do not need much efforts to know the time.. and yes, my cellphone is close too!! :) i wake up.. shift from bed to chair.. check any new mails.. check orkut scraps.. communities.. send the required mail (the one that got me awakened..)

5:45 pm..
i'm in time for tiffin (evening snacks in our mess is called tiffin) go to the mess.. i have the options of dosa and toast.. i move towards the counters.. still thinking.. the dosa counter is close.. i reach near it.. and make up my mind to have toast today.. have some toast with butter.. along with hot tea.. tiffin is what i generally don't miss.. many a times its as heavy as lunch..

6:30 pm..
back in my heaven.. facing the laptop screen.. thinking about what next.. and this girl pings me.. ;) a friend who's now in a different city.. she's free it seems.. we have a wonderful chat.. with me teasing her and she doing the same in return.. have a couple of laughs.. i keep checking the time at intervals.. but don't care about it..

7:30 pm..
one hour chatting!! i think its more than enough at this stage.. i tell her that i have some work.. she's also about to leave.. (there are very few people who spend time online as much as me.. whenever i am awake :D)

8:00 pm..
i wonder what to do next.. i sit idling.. surf as usual.. writing scraps.. checking friends' profiles.. n stuff on orkut.. replying new scraps n stuff.. suddenly a scrap from a good old female friend catches my attention!! after many days.. i reply immediately.. we exchange a few.. but its time to leave.. dinner time.. mess closes soon.. so i wish her good bye..

9:00 pm..
i'm having a peaceful dinner in my mess.. chatting with a few friends.. a group of females visit the mess.. as usual, all are staring at them.. nothing unsual, non-males do get a lot of attention in IITs.. and "mood i" begins tomorrow.. for those who don't know, its among the biggest youth fests in India, which is held at IIT Bombay every year..

9:45 pm..
i'm back to the pavillion.. small chats on the IM.. i get a call from home.. well, for the past one and a half year, home is the only place from where i do get my 90% calls.. its not that i don't have any friends.. its just the stupid internet.. i'm online all the time.. and there are mails and orkut and IM.. i do miss speaking on the phone and those lovely sms messages..

10:30 pm..
i'm still on the net.. as usual.. chatting with some on campus friends.. just then a chat friend pings me.. do i need to tell that this friend was a female.. chat friends implies females for me.. we have a nice chat.. met her after a few days..
there was a time in IIT when i made a lot of chat friends.. maybe due to the lack of females in real life..

11:30 pm..
she logs off.. i ask a friend for tea at the canteen.. (on messenger of course) he suggests to wait.. i continue surfing.. reading some news and all.. orkutting.. occasional reading of blogs..

12:30 am.. (Dec 26)
i finally convince my friends to accompany me to the canteen.. we go to the next hostel, H-6.. i have 'burma toast' and tea.. 'burma toast' is similar to omelette sandwitch, just toasted in a different fashion.. we call this midnight meals.. we have them daily.. the TV is on in the lounge of H6 with some stupid channel which is advertising this pack of CDs called 'english guru'.. imagine learning english using a set of VCDs.. how i wished that someone changed the channel!!

1:30 am
i'm back in my den.. my cron job executes.. check mails.. scraps.. if found something new then reply.. check communities.. read new postings if any.. check out who's online.. etc etc.. check out babes on orkut.. read blogs..

2:00 am
i come across the blog of this damsel.. she's too good!! a gem of a person, i must say.. its not that i am trying to impress her.. she does'nt even know me.. even i don't know her in reality.. i just frequent her profile on orkut.. n i've read articles about her talents in the newspaper once!! yup, its true, in the times of india sometime back.. she's a girl of my age, knows a lots of languages, writes really well (poetry), that too in several languages, plays a couple of musical instruments, and so on.. and she's damn beautiful.. what else could one ask from God!! the blessed one!! by 'lots of' languages, i mean really lots.. german, japanese, chinese simplified, persian, etc etc.. atleast a dozen!! this is really great.. i wonder what might be the inspiration behind this.. these are not required for any degree of course!! :D (if it were then even i would've managed :P) just imagine the curiosity and the motivation.. anybody would give up after learning one or two.. and the poems written in her blog are simply amazing.. i haven't read them all, but i'm sure all of them will be interesting..

2:30 am..
i have an urge to write something in my blog too..
and i start at 2:41 am.. thats when i started writing this crap.. without much thought into what i am going to write, i have been writing for the past one hour.. maybe more..

4:01 am..
thats the time now..
now let me tell you folks about my current situation.. i just can't imagine what kind of image of mine is present before your eyes after reading all this stuff..
read ahead..

picture this:
i have to do my Mtech project, the stage 2 submission of which is on 8th jan.. i have not met my advisor in at least the last 1 month.. i haven't worked much either.. 'much' here is too bad.. i guess i have hardly worked.. we had this whole month free.. no lectures.. not that free, we did have our campus placements starting 1st of dec.. i was lucky to finish up my placements on 4th dec itself in Credit Suisse, a swiss-based finance company.. <:-p since then, i have had all the time in the world to work on my project..

i don't know what's happening around me.. rather within me.. everything is just normal.. when it shouldn't!! i understand that i must work.. thats the truth.. the reality i from which i simply cannot run away.. but still.. i simply spend days like this.. exactly like the ones i did today..

it was okay at the start.. i haven't got a break since long.. and i'm amongst those who need them frequently.. and i have them too.. watched a lot of movies this month.. did lots of time pass.. its not that the success of new job has gone into my head.. believe me, i'm really down to earth as before.. just that i am plain cool.. not worrying at all about the current state of my project..

there are a few more days ahead.. but there's 'mood i' starting from tomorrow.. rather today.. n there's my birthday in 2 days.. n i gotta attend a close friend's wedding in pune on 29th.. and then there is 31st!! must welcome the new year with a bash, ain't i??

i am known to be super-cool among my friends.. but this is too much.. i shudn't be so much relaxed.. the tensions would have killed somebody in my place.. people just can't imagine my state.. really..

and here i am.. idling all day along.. 10 hours of sleep.. 3 hours of orkutting.. 3 hours of chatting.. 3 hours of mails/surfing.. and the day is over!! (3 hrs are lost in general stuff man!!) 24 hrs in a day.. seems so unfair.. ONLY 24 hrs!! no time to work!!

4:20 am..
this is the current time.. i have wasted the last 1 hour 40 minutes writing this blog.. and will spend atleast another 20 publishing.. i wonder if i am being insane..

all about life

sleep at 6 am.. wake up at 1 pm.. alarms.. reminders.. eat.. firefox.. ssh.. lunch.. nsl-15.cse.iitb.ac.in.. thunderbird.. mails.. gaim.. yahoo.. orkut.. gmail.. google calendar.. chat.. scraps.. DNA.. H12 mess.. lunch.. tiffin.. cycle.. kresit.. C301.. badlu canteen.. medu wada.. Circular Hall.. netlab.. coffee shackers.. tomato soup.. maggi bonda.. orkut scraps.. yahoo.. tiffin.. h12 shop.. lays.. alu bhujia.. sleep.. eat.. sms.. phone calls.. orkut.. testimonials.. search female profiles.. read.. photos.. bookmark.. check scraps.. C321.. A209.. H8.. H12 comp room.. sysadgiri.. B512.. printer paper.. comp room.. proxies.. TV streaming.. skywing.. Table tennis.. Devi temple.. Ganpati temple.. lake side.. cycle.. walking.. main gate.. kanda bahji.. chai.. Y-gate.. maddu.. hiranandani.. dominos.. pizza hut.. CCD.. naturals.. tandoori chicken.. pop tates.. SP.. kingfisher.. smirnoff.. h6 nite canteen.. chicken shezwan rice.. cutting.. h12 canteen.. onion uttapa.. ftp.. dc++.. movies.. songs.. streaming.. ftp search.. trying to study.. sleep.. eat.. more sleep.. more movies.. calls from home.. nokia 6270.. clicking pics.. yahoo photos.. multiply.. blogspot.. personal mails.. news-groups.. orkut communities.. mails from guide.. MTP!! postponing MTP.. midsems.. assignments.. quizes.. endsems.. seminars.. talks.. presentations.. reports.. latex.. linux.. ~himanshu.. meetings.. lectures.. TA.. TA meetings.. canara ATM sucks.. andheri.. arfa.. bandstand.. 422.. mulund.. 396.. thane-vandana.. swargate-pune.. happy birthdays.. staff C.. midnite buddays.. bumps.. couplings.. series.. sms.. blogspot.. blog..

thats what i call life..

All about me...

a traveller..
cruising the journey called life..
trying to explore the path less travelled..
searching for answers..
answers to a number of questions..
i move ahead each day..
thinking about destiny..
thinking about love..
thinking.. n thinking more..
dreaming..
i move on..
with a passion for thrills..
and a fascination for beauty..
i could go on writing forever..
but..
i am a traveller..
i need to move ahead..

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep..
but I have promises to keep..
and miles to go before I sleep..
and miles to go before I sleep.."